Today’s Scripture Reading: Psalms 144-145, 88-89
Heavenly Father, I’ve spent the last 30 minutes desperately trying to find another scripture for today’s prayer. I kept hearing this voice in my head saying, “your last few prayers have been sad, you need to lighten it up.” What’s really going on is I’m afraid my last few prayers are revealing more about me than I want to share. I am bent very low beneath the loads of my life and I don’t want anyone to know.
Lord, but Your Spirit rose up in and said, “Dianne, yes you’re low. Yes, you’re tired and weary. Yes, you feel like you have no faith but You know how to fight the enemy of Your soul. My daughter, you’ve been here before. You know to do. Take the fiery darts of the enemy (Ephesians 6:6) and throw them back at him. Take the very thing he’s using to cause you to want to hide and face this pain in secret and bring it into the light. Dianne, will you allow Me to use your pain to help others? Will you be transparent and real?
Lord, I don’t feel strong enough. I’m really too consumed with my pain to care about anyone else, but I trust You.
The Lord helps the fallen and lifts those bent beneath their loads. —Psalms 145:14
Yes, Lord I will tell the world that I’m bent low. I’m tired. I’m angry, I’m sad and I feel You are far from me. But Jesus I will also tell the world that I know You will rescue me! I know You understand and have not forsaken me. Holy Spirit, how would I make it without Your Word? It’s like medicine to my soul.
Thank you for loving me when I’m completely unlovable.
I trust You.
In Jesus Name. Amen
©2014, Dianne Guthmuller
Tomorrow’s Scripture Reading: Psalms 50, 73-74